Times are hard and they are just going to get harder. I do not have time, motivation, or the strength for all this. I do not know how I am going to get through all this. aghh
“I would give the world up to you, but i cannot make a decision in one night, i have no back up plan, well i did but that is not until long within the future. And worse of all i cannot even make decisions. Im afraid to be off in the world with no independence of my own which obviously you have no connection or understanding to. Im not upset or mad at you, i am more so just irritated at the whole situation sorry for holding you back from this position and that is the whole guilt trip I am putting myself through. Dont worry you will get to where you want in that lovely world”
Everything seems to irritate me, and all is going downhill. I cant please everyone and obviously no one can please me, Im trying very hard to enjoy life and I do at times but others its overbearing annoyance. Eh. Maybe Ill figure it all out when I leave.
What I have come to realize during my winter “break”:
1. I work way too much but i like to work, so no complaining there, 3 days of time and a half ^-^
2. I procrastinate on homework and i hate it!
3. I need to do my homework
4. I had an amazing time with two people that i rarely hang out with and I’d love to hang out with them more.
5. I should get out more =/
6. Im getting too attached
7. I do not want to go back to school ^-^
8. I should stay home a bit more..
Hmm i dont think there is anything else but I had a great time during this break!
Everyone experiences different situations all the time some go completely insane and cant handle them and others dont let it effect them. Its all about how you are capable of handling things to be able to be”mentally insane.”
